wanted to start with alrighty.. but i thought again.. it wasnt alright.

mama called me to tell me that she passed away. i guess that she's very good girl. she waited for everyone to leave the house, including my maid then she ...... mama said that she bathe and left this world with her body cleaned. remember that yesterday and the day before, she kept going inside everyone's room. i thought that she get well and was able to stand up, but i couldnt have expected that she left me in such a sudden. when i went home, i told myself not to cry. i walked to baby and gave him biscuit. this packet to biscuit was meant for her, but she can never get to eat it anymore. sorry girl. when i gave baby the biscuit, he saw me crying and came on my lap and lied there with his eyes closed. i could see the tears falling from the eyes as well as mine falling from mine. baby was really sad. he ate one biscuit and walked off, to a corner just staring into space. but me, sitting on the floor, crying non-stop. then when i walked to the bathroom, i saw him following me but i didnt want him to see my tears falling because i know that he will also cry. it was all my fault. i made this everything to happen. if i was not careless, i would already gave her the biscuit yesterday and everything might not be the same as now. if im baby, i'll HATE jean alot! it was me who made baby lost his mother.
hope that i can stop crying by now. rtears have been falling non-stop since i've ended school.

you'll always be in my heart
baby, dont cry. cheer up k?